continued from PART I
http://casualcreation.blogspot.com/2008_12_01_archive.html#5956669792382238704........My dad was at my side. My breathes were becoming slower and slower. I could hear the vague muffled voices of the doctors and nurses, as they surrounded me, calling for the black oxygen pump, bag, mask, injections. My body lay still, breathless, lifeless.
Part II...
My vision paled into darkness. I could not see anything or anyone around me. My eyes closed, as I fell deeper and deeper into the darkness. “Was I dying?” I faded out of consciousness, as I entered what seemed like another realm of existence. I thought of my mother and dad. I realized their pain of loosing their only son. Clarity of the love and support of my family and friends filled me heart. Visions of my absence in their lives and in their future came before me. I would not be there to comfort and help my parents as they aged. Tears of sadness washed away the fear of the darkness, the fear of dying. I went to the profound darkness, “death” you could call it in another words, then I knew I was gone and there, the presence of the Hindu God, Lord Shiva, came in within myself. OM NAMAH SHIVAYA, this was the last thing I said and ahead - I was dead.
The next day, miracle happened; Everyone had very lost the hope that i'll open eyes back but when I opened my eyes, I was back in ICU ward, and I realised that I escaped death and I was alive, I had life but I found myself connected to a ventilator and an oxygen tube in my lungs to breathe. To prevent injury and accidental removal of the breathing machine, the staff restrained both my hands at my side. I acknowledged something pulled my life back to revival the other day but I was scared since this was all unfamiliar. I wanted my mother, but could not talk with the tube in my mouth. I heard nurses talking at their station next to my bed, but I could not get their attention with my eyes. Intending to see my mother, I managed to make some noise by kicking the sheet at the bottom of the bed. They were overwhelmed to see me alive. They came over, comforted me, and stroked my hair as if I was their baby. With my eyes speaking for me, they understood I would not be agitated, so they untied my hands. I pointed to a pen and a piece of paper so I could tell them I wanted to see my mother.
When my mother arrived, I could not stop my flood of tears for my mother, my poor mother who had seen her son dying.Every one was happy and surprised to see me awake and able to talk by writing notes. And this news was disseminated all over the hospital in no time.. everyone was there to see me and they were very happy. I gradually improved, though the doctors kept saying they did not expect me to survive. They said, “It was in God’s hands and He heard all your prayers.“ There were many prayers. Every time the doctora said, “Only the miracle and his strength will help him”; my family and friends would pray to Lord Shiva and other Hindu Gods.
The last time I was in ICU, I had the presence and power of Lord Shiva in a dream, the night before my transfer to the General Ward. I was lying in the ICU bed when the skeletons of three ghosts rose from vacant ICU beds. They were the ghosts of death and came to fight for my life. They fought hard, pressing me down. Their power overwhelmed my weak body. I could not move, get up, or run. “OM NAMAH SHIVAYA”, I called to Lord Shiva. My strength returned. God's power smashed away the skeletons.
This dream was the symbol of what would happen that next day. It was calling “OM NAMAH SHIVAYA” that I survived and escaped death. It was a miracle of Lord Shiva. It is by the grace of God, that I am alive. The miracle of Lord Shiva, the dedication of the doctors, and the persistence and love of my family.
My condition improved and the doctor was able to transfer me to the general ward. Though I continued to have a fever, my pain was considerably less every day. Within a week, with the tunes and drains removed, I was ready to walk. One step at a time, and with the support of my mother, I eventually was able to take a few steps in the hall. When Dr. Shyam Bahadur Pandey saw me walking, he said he was happy to see me doing so well. Before he left, he smiled and said, “If you keep up the good work, you should be discharged soon!”
A few days later, I was able to go home. My discharge papers said, "Come back in a month for surgical removal of Gallbladder", I was so happy I smiled!
Having lost 18 kg, I was weak and very thin. Managing the disease with medication, diet, and rest, I was able to stay home from the hospital. In a month, I returned to the hospital for surgery. The surgeon removed my gallbladder and the necrotic portion of my pancreas. There were no problems or complications. We were all grateful for that.
The doctor said that this should not recur since the source that caused pancreatitis (gall stones that blocked the pancreatic bile) was removed and assured me not to worry about about this, Dr Shyam Bahadur Pandey regarded my life as their trophy LoL.
Since my surgery, I am still doing well.. I know that I am fortunate and do not take this for granted.My story has gone full circle.
Life is good, I am healthy, and my future looks promising.
I enjoy all that life offers and I do my best at everything I do.
I am good at sports, games, extra curriculum activities, and my studies.
I am conscientious about my health and am on top of any health problems that develop.
Life is fun, especially, getting together with my friends.
NOTE: The author has appreciated sharing the story amongst us. The author also wishes to make the fellow readers aware of the Disease Pancreatitis which rates rear prevalence but devastatingly dreadful. Written in the year of 2003, few years ago, but remains Evergreen to readers’ eyes.P.S. I’m the author of this story.